Auf Wiedersehen Mein Lieben!

Good bye..
My love,
Forever.
Auf wiedersehen ..
Mein Lieben,
Fur immer.
You will forever be my ultimate dream
Forever, I swear!
Just because of this worldly law,
That prohibition simply destroys any hope for me
To get you.
Verily God knows well of my pure sincere intention
To own you.
Numb, speechless
Don’t know what to say
Deep in heart
How disappointed I am
That love isn’t even illegal in religion
But why this worldly law just being unfair to me?
Why?
Nothing I get.
Yes, nothing.
Why nearly all my dreams and wishes
Simply being impossible to me?
Why?
God testing me
Yes I know
But what a pain in the neck
To bear such deprivation
To be patient all the time
Unbearable suffering
Deep in heart
Without others knowing
Only God knows
For you mein Lieben
Forever you will be my dream
Whatever it will be
That shall remain
As my love toward you is eternal
Auf wiedersehen mein Lieben
Fur immer
May God fulfil this dream one day
Amen.

Gaming stalemate

Well people, guess what? I’m in an uncertain situation. Hmm… It is indeed rare for me to express my feeling directly in blog post. Only in certain occasion I did so on my facebook wall. I don’t know why I’m doing this. I’m really unsure why. This is indeed against my style as I prefer to stay recluse as possible. Hmm… I’m really feeling uncertain now and I need to express this. I think for the first time ever at this moment I’m starting to feel bored of playing games which already became my staple hobby ever since I was a kid. I don’t know why this happens. Perhaps I’m too much of gaming for quite a long period of time. This is weird. Indeed. So far as I could remember, I seldom feel bored of facing my lappy messing with my top list FPS or my favourite RTS. That feeling just comes out from nowhere, abruptly, suddenly without me even ready yet to embrace it. Why? Why suddenly I become like this? I can be considered as a hardcore gamer among my gaming friends as I have a huge collection of games ever until to the extent that they even borrow my games. Indeed, I ‘m the only games lender@ supplier among my community. Suddenly, I’m started to feel bored with gaming. How weird that feeling is…. Hah! That is a ‘stalemate’ situation. Yes, stalemate. I prefer that term. That just sounds fit with my condition right now. Gaming stalemate. That’s my preferred phrase to portray my sudden boredom toward gaming. I know that stalemate term isn’t really suitable to be used but hey, I often got inspiration from military culture. The first time I ever heard of that term is when reading about the history of World War 1. Stalemate is used to describe the dull and not so progressive situation of that bloody war as it was one of the major wars that saw huge casualties due to so the, what I considered as ‘stupid’ and ‘dumb’ tactics.



"Stupid" tactic employed during WW1: Trench Warfare. Bloody stalemate ever...

Enough with that history lesson. Many of you might disagree with my preference of that term but hey, it’s my choice. No question about it! Hahaha.. Just kidding. I think that term suits well with my situation. I’m rather sure though I feel bored of gaming now but it will remain as my prime interest for the rest of my life. That’s for sure. Deep in my heart, I do still love playing games. I’m just too much of it. Plus, this year less interesting games will be released. That’s the main factor why I’m feeling bored. I already played almost all my favourite games so far including the new Medal of Honor and Call of Duty Back Ops. Now, I’m feeling stuck of what games to play. Somehow I no longer can bear to play same games again which before this I could. Hmm…. I need to rest. Yes, resting from playing games. Not retire entirely but to reduce it even lesser than before. Still , if I’m just bored of nothing to do, surely I will play games to pass the time. Well, gaming is like part of me. I can’t really throw it away from my life. It isn’t a bad thing. So why need to trash it? I’m not affected by it negatively so far.


Gaming still remain my interest forever...

Hmmm….. Hah! Enough with all that. I think already expressed so much about myself. Time to stop. --The end- Back to my blogging development, I’m still working on the history of firearms. My progress now is rather slow but I still put an effort on it. Insya-ALLAH, it will be done when it is. Life is just full of the unexpected. Remember that. Till the next time, see you all again comrades! May ALLAH bless all of you! Amen..

Welcome back ! Long time no see! Suddenly came the mood..

Assalamualaikum! Greeting back, people! It has been quite a long time since I’ve stopped blogging. As stated before, I wasn’t in the mood to write. But now, I’m back to blog again. I simply don’t know from where I got the inspiration but I just want to write. Maybe, I’m into gaming too much and I need to slow down a little bit. Hmmm.. I don’t know from where to start but since this blog is dedicated to my very own interest, why don’t just talk about something which I like. Haha.. that sounds stupid. Well, that’s the result of a very long break from blogging. Anyway, when talking about my interests; history, pc gaming and art of war, I reckon people out there might view me as a weird guy. What can I say? I simply love them. Different people, different taste, different point of view. No questions about it. Yes I realize that my interest isn’t like the typical interest of most youth out there. (e.g: football, sport, car, motorbike, outdoor challenges, etc..) This is me. Yes, just me. Perhaps person like me will be one among a hundred. What kind of freak guy to love history subject?


History?! Many people hate this subject back during schooling era

Okay, enough with that. I already discussed about that in the previous post. So, let’s continue with my plan. I love firearms. Thus, I’m planning to discuss here about the history of firearms. Actually, I already planned to write about this before but then my interest of blogging hampered drastically causing me to put halt on that. I will discuss in brief on the development of firearms since their earliest appearance till this day. After that I will go on the specific guns which I think the finest and the best in the world. Well, I’m undoubtedly a gun nut, isn’t that right?

Gun Nut!!

Haha.. Uh oh… I just realized that I lost the copy of data about history of firearms which I did a research for my previous sem assignment. Verdamnt! Maybe I accidentally erased the data from my lappy. Hmm… it seems that I need to do the history from the scratch. Hmm… hah! Luckily I still have the sources needed for it. Thank God! This might take some time. Okay people! That’s it for now. Need to start working for the next post. Until the next time, see you all later.